First day of work, not so terrible

Had my first day at New York & Company today... it was just basic orientation sort of stuff, nothing unexpected. I think I'm really gonna like it there. It's something new, a change of pace. It's not a funeral business job, but I'll at least accumulate a nice wardrobe while i work there. They got me on for five days next week, about 30 hours... that's way more than i was expecting (woo hoo!)

So with the rest of my week I'll be going through more of my stuff, hopefully getting my dresser up stairs finally, consistently going to the gym every few days. I really need to get on this gym stuff. I'm so sick of being so large and uncomfortable. A lot of my clothes are starting not to fit anymore :(

My goals for the rest of the week:
- Get bedroom in order
- Go to the gym at least 2 times
- Try out yoga (just to see if its worth my time)
- Tan daily (so sick of being pale)
- Finish season 4 of Heros
- Have Mimosas

That is all for now <3

oh today, today...

The stress is starting to get to me...
I picked a bad month to go off my anti depressants. Trying to find a full time job, unpacking and getting 23 years of my shit consolidated and put where it belongs, and trying to fit dieting losing weight and going to the gym in with all of this crap.
Overall, it sucks.
All i want to do is get some friends (which i seem to be lacking these days) and hang out occasionally. Amongst all of this down time, i need some lower down time. Like a massage, a mani/ pedi, some new makeup, some styling clothes. I like being a girl, i just don't like the feelings that are associated with it. :(

more to come when i get motivated and/ or inspired.
I miss writing, even it is "blogging" (god i feel lame for saying that)

<3
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